September 2nd, 2004

And so I'm having to be responsible.

I dislike being responsible. It means doing things you used to want to do (or at least used to be willing to do), and no longer want to do, but can't actually put off doing any longer without conclusively not having done them.

The past week or two have been like that, and it's only going to get worse through Linucon. The annoying part is it takes up so much time and energy that it makes other things move from "fun" to "responsibility", because I don't have the combination of time and energy to do them spontaneously.

Of course there's the old dilemma of diminishing returns, where you sit there forcing yourself to do something slower and slower until it would actually be faster to go do something else for a while and come back to it. That's always fun. (Am I procrastinating because I don't want to do it, or because I'm spinning my wheels?)

It's all for a good cause (Linucon), but I'm glad there's only another month of it. I can only imagine what having children must be like. (I could always ask my sister, I suppose... :)